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Friday, July 6th, 2007
12:56 pm - long time...
well, i have a new guy who is completely wonderful...and we're having a baby. i'm 5 months pregnant with our son who is due on November 15th. that's all for now.

current mood: cheerful

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Friday, January 19th, 2007
2:13 pm
same shit..different year. i'm kind of happy, but things could be better.

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Saturday, November 11th, 2006
12:18 pm
i'm not happy.

too many things going on.

some positive, most negative.

when will it end?

when will i be completely happy?

current mood: tired

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Friday, April 21st, 2006
5:07 pm

current mood: excited

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Monday, April 17th, 2006
10:16 pm - Congrats Kenny and Jill!!!!
Brianna Rose Schaallema

Born on Friday April 14th, 2006


the end?



current mood: jealous

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Thursday, April 13th, 2006
11:46 am
Aaron got a different flight. HE COMES HOME IN 9 DAYS!!! He flies into Chigago Midway around 7:30pm on the 21st.

current mood: excited

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Friday, February 24th, 2006
10:52 am - public entry
well, i found out who it was. i wonder why she bothers to read my journal everyday, but i guess she's very interested in my life for some reason even though we don't even know eachother that well. i have to say that i'm not impressed. i used to be okay with her, but not anymore.

nothing is ruined and everything's ok with everyone else though.

current mood: content

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Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
6:12 pm

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5:34 pm - last straw
well, since there are some assholes who read my lj and decide to go run out and tell certain people what i write to get me in trouble because they feel it's necessary and don't want me to be happy, i've been forced to do this...

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11:39 am
last night was fun. i haven't felt that happy in a long time. a few people felt the need to break up the "nonsense" that was going on between me and Jeremy, even though there was none. nothing happened and nothing was going to happen. we were in the living room with everyone and i don't want anything more than just to be friends right now. we talked and laughed and had a good time. just like we used to. i guess nobody wants us to be able to do that anymore and that kinda sucks. i don't understand that. why do people interfere when things we're going good? i thought we were supposed to get along so that i wouldn't ruin everyone's time when we're around each other. i thought they'd be happy that we were getting along instead of fighting. i'm confused.

current mood: content

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Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
11:57 am
looks like i'm going now. i gave Brendon my money last night.

monday night was good. Jeremy and i talked for like 45 minutes in his truck at AJ's. it kinda helped to shed some light on things.

i'm not going to be a bitch anymore....well, i'm gonna try not to anyways.

last night i was sitting at AJ's. Doug came and sat next to me. it was just him and i in the room. then i hear "hey sexy?" i ignored it, then he said it again. i responded. then i hear "will you have dinner with me sometime?".....it's nice to be wanted.

i have to get ready for work now.

current mood: calm

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Monday, February 20th, 2006
12:23 pm
he says i can go on spring break with everyone now, but HE needs to tell people that, not me.

he called this morning and we had a long talk. i guess i'm being a bitch and he doesn't fully understand why. i have a bad attitude and my personality has changed. actually, it hasn't. i'm happy and bubbly when i'm with other people and at work...he just brings out the worst in me. he made me this way and i made sure he knows it. i'm just fed up and i'm not gonna take his shit anymore. i don't hate him or anything, i'm just done letting him get to me and bother me like he's been doing for the past 7 months. i can do better. i don't deserve to feel like shit all the time and starting now, i'm not going to....this means that i'm probably gonna be a bitch for a while 'til i can rebuild the walls that surrounded me and kept me from being hurt...and i'm gonna appologize now to everyone that i'm going to piss off and/or offend. sorry guys. i gotta do this for me.

time to look for a new job now. i can't handle/afford working only 8 hours a week. i don't know where to look though. maybe i'll go pick up a newspaper or something. later kiddies.

p.s.~ i'm moving to Oregon

current mood: excited

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Sunday, February 19th, 2006
10:45 am
i really want to punch something right now.

i have a strange feeling that today is gonna be one of my bad days..but on the plus side, instead of being sad and crying, i'm just angry.

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Saturday, February 18th, 2006
4:32 pm
i miss sex.

it's been a month.

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12:44 pm
we finally got power back last night..man was it cold when i woke up yesterday. brrrr..

i need something to do tonight. i want to go to b-dubbs....

current mood: contemplative

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Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
6:37 pm
we just got a phone call from Aaron. he's in the hospital and has pneumonia. :o(

current mood: upset

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11:28 am - come home soon!
i really want this kid to come home:

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yesterday, i saw a picture of him and cried. i miss my little brother so much...

current mood: anxious

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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
10:36 am - "Happy" Valentines Day?
at 9am i received a phone call. it was Jeremy. he called and said "for what it's worth, happy valentines day". i was half asleep and said the same thing back to him and hung up.

my mom is having surgery right now. she didn't want me to waste my gas and drive to butterworth to be with her. it's understandable, plus i would've just been sitting there alone with duduane anyway. that's not really how i wanted to spend the day. i think i'm gonna go buy my mom some tulips before she gets home. she loves tulips.

current mood: mellow

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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
9:24 am
crazy fun at kristi's last night. i actually stayed pretty calm and did my own thing while Jeremy was there. every now and then when i got up to go get something he'd ask whoever i was talking to what was wrong with me. there was never anything wrong though...ugh, i can't wait to see the pictures that are on brendon's camera..there's lots of girl on girl action..it slightly frightens me..at one point, this guy used a pick up line on me and then put his arm around me and then pushed me and mandi into the bedroom for a "threesome". he wanted to see our boobs and when when we wouldn't, he got pissed and left. it was slightly amusing...at the end of the night, i actually chatted with Jeremy for a few minutes. he was wasted and decided that he was gonna drive home.i told him to be careful and that i still worry about him he said "i will, i promise" and kept giving me hugs and kisses on the neck and cheek. there was a moment outside after we hugged and looked into eachothers eyes and we knew what we both wanted to do, but didn't...anyway, he backed up his truck, stopped, and started to roll down the window so i walked over to it. i told him again to be really really careful..he said "always" and then he kissed me...on the lips. i just kinda looked at the ground and walked away after that. it was nice, but i don't even think he'll remember it because he was so drunk, so i'm not gonna bring it up to him....but yeah, all in all it was a pretty good night.

current mood: awake

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Friday, February 10th, 2006
1:24 pm
thanks to prozac, i'm cool as a cucumber....normally i'd be very sad and angry, i mean i still am, but at the same time, i don't really care right now. this stuff's amazing.

current mood: content

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